crafty bastards is next saturday.
i don't heve nearly what i had hoped to get done.
of course.
too many things have come up.
an important one being i am most likely getting a job again at a locally owned health bar when i get back.
i used to work there over a year ago but i quit when stacey got her job and i started staying home with jack.
i tried to hold out hope for the longest time that this stuff i do could bring in a decent amount of money.
but i am finally ready to admit defeat and i am going to work 5 days a week and try to sew when i get a chance.
i will miss the anticipation of creating new monsters.
but i will not miss the anticipation of constantly checking my email hoping for a sale.
it is just too hard to just sit around hoping that i will make money.
and with the economy going the way it is people just don't have the spare money they used to.
they don't have as much for health food i know, but they certainly don't have the money for plush. at least my plush.
at least food is something you NEED.
but i am not giving up completely.
i will still make things.
but i really don't know how much.
cause i make plush to try to sell so i can have money for my family.
i don't make it cause i want to be rich, or famous.
i just want my family to be able to have the things we need.
and i used to think that eventually things would be steady with this and maybe i wouldn't have to stress as much. but as i have gotten better and more popular people have less money. so yes lots of people leave little comments like "this is awesome! " and "i love this" and stuff on my flickr pictures and i have almost 300 people favorited me on etsy. but as much as i love all my fans, i understand that as much as they love my work they don't have the money to help me keep my family afloat.

if things work out i might be running the small health bar they already have as they are trying to open another larger location as well . i am going to find out more tomorrow.